Two weeks ago, Mia's elementary school sent home a notice that she was missing her MMR (Measles, Mumps and Rubella), Chicken Pox and Influenza vaccines.

When I was pregnant I struggled with the decision about vaccinating my baby. I had heard a lot of people connecting immunizations with Autism. I called my sister in law, Star, I asked her if she had her daughter immunized. She said she had. She had done some reading on the connections between Autism and newborn vaccinations. There have been theories that the amount of viruses introduced into a brand new nervous system can overload it and cause Autism. But ultimately, the risk of the diseases proves more of a threat than Autism.

Much information has come out since 2012, and I definitely lean towards getting your child immunized. However, I had my worries about getting Mia's most recent dose of vaccinations this week.

When I was at the SonRise program, I was talking to a woman who's son was diagnosed with Autism. She told me her son was a typical young boy. He crawled at 6 months, walked and talked at a year and a half. She took him to the doctor to have his immunizations up dated. The next day he woke up and had lost all of his language. How can I aruge with the fact that he was a changed boy the day after having shots.

We got to the doctor and I was very nervous. Like so many decisions in life you just don't know if youre doing the right thing. What if these shots take away all the progress Mia has made in therapy? I held her down on the butcher paper as they plunged the syringes into her thighs. I felt terrible. What if I made the wrong decision?

That night, I made Mia sleep in my bed. I don't know what I was waiting for, a fever, shortness of breath, or a silent transition regression. So far, it's been three days and I have seen no apparent change in her behavior. I think we're in the clear. But when it comes to our kids, are we ever really in the clear?